for all the kids who have taught me a life lesson....

i have one kidney. i have been in the hospital since tuesday night. i have found out on the 18th of March @ 9:30PM, that i only have one kidney. the ER was great. signed in triaged, pain meds and in one room in like 45 minutes. the trip to floor five wasn't so much. i do not like to repeat myself. darn, i should of just had a record player playing over and over. i found out not to 100% trust the medical team. people said they would do stuff and didn't. gave the wrong kind of pain medication. once time though. do not like vicadin! major headaches with icky stuff. they sent me home with another pain medication. good.i am on an antibiotic as well. i am dealing with a kidney stone still hanging out doing it's hurtful thing! wow. never take the littlest things for granted. this post to all the little children who have taught me this along with way!!! i will not ever take the little stuff for granted! i will live my life better and be even more appreciative!!!

one two 3

today is Pete's third birthday! he knows how to hold up 3 fingers. it is cute. he hides his pinky finger. he is now 33+LBS, his vocabulary is getting bigger every day. he can county assisted to 3 sometimes 4. will sing the ABC song with a grownup. his favorite foods are kellog's fruit snacks, hot dogs, yogurt and speghetti. he loves noodles. you can find pete in any flower bed with a kid's shovel, dirty, not a care in the world, on a skateboard or in the dugout @ a baseball park! i took him to the airport to pick up daddy and accidentally parked int the wrong garage. so needless to say, we got a free train ride out of the deal! pics are coming. i love low batteries!

baseball in my heart for one son and a diagnosis for the middle child.

on the way to my oldest son's baseball practice i was praying aloud for my middle child. he was at a doctor's appointment. this was very last minute. there i sat in the driver's seat, praying. my youngest 3YO caught wind that i was saying something. he asked me what i was doing and i told him i praying! he said me too i praying too. he went on his little sweet baseball prayer. then he said something about his heart. i said is there a baseball in your heart and he says yes very proudly. thought that was really cute! then on March 17th we have a doctor's appointment for tristan's final diagnosis with the psychologist. he had his testing/eval today. they have put tristan on an additional medication in the evening to help calm him and boy does it ever! it also stays with him during the next day!

coming here with a thankful heart

i am truly thankful tonight for my children. their health is 100% unlike those of some babies i have read about tonight. thank you god for your around the clock 24/7 blessings in my life. thank you for giving me a normal life, no appts no hospital visits.please be with those tonight who are not as privledged as i am. you know who they are. just give them strength to endure! good night jesus i love you! AMEN!

a step closer

today was a great day. took tristan to the psychiatrist appointment she has him on a mood stabilizer @ night to help calm and give him an appetite. then we had an eval appointment for doing some testing to find exactly what he has. this is a step closer for tristan to find out exactly what is going on! love you tristan!!!

not me monday

well this should of been done a long time ago! this is my not me monday post. i surely was on time to baseball practice last week! i did call the babysitter and let her know didn't i? i didn't let the laundry explode again this weekend. nope i am on top of it! 2 loads a night! and my son didnt' have to wear pj's to the sitters house because i ran out of shout to clean the clothes!! WOW onto a another note, pete will be 3 in 9 days. mikey has a girlfriend and it has been really cool to see him with her. we had our first date on saturday. well , there were 3 of them at the mall,. got mikey some shoes @ the skateboard shop and boy do i wish i had my camera there! my 3 YO was riding the skateboard in the store! of course the store was empty though!!!

happy 4th birthday lil aiden...

today is weighing on heart. some cousins in my husband's side of the family lost a perfectly whole lil boy 4 years ago. he was such a handsome lil boy but was born asleep. today i will pray for Melody and Brian as they clutch the memories of this child. today i will love stronger provide more i love you's and give momma kisses just a couple more than the usual. the parents have since had another lil boy, Ethan. he will turning 1 on the 16th. aiden, i know you are looking over your siblings. we will sending up 12 red balloons to you today. may you sit with Jesus and have a wonderful birthday while your sweet mom and dad wait to hold you in heaven~~

heros and 52 years of marriage.

tonight i went to the taste of texas with my family and my grandparents and celebrated pawpaw's birthday and their 52nd wedding anniversary. o how neat it was to experience this. we had a very very nice steak dinner and a awesome joyous evening! my grandma is my hero. she is one who has made me the person i have become and for that i forever grateful. i am thankful. they both always made me feel welcomed and loved. there was lots and lots of encouragement. strength. to the best grandparents a granddaughter could EVER have~~love you with the deepest part of my heart, your granddaughter bonny deanne.

NMM

i did not indulge in the nail salon and treat myself to a nail refill. i most certainly did not wait til the last minute tonight to figure out dinner. i certainly didn't take wonder how on earth i could get 5 kids + me to church on time sunday morning!! more to come! off to prepare my menu last minute dinner!

thankful

Haiti this is just aweful. i have been watching the news too much. being consumed. wishing i could do more other than just pray and maybe donate a couple of dollars here and there! i wish i could bring a child home and take care of that child!! bathing clothing and most of all, feeding that child. no child should ever go w/out food. @ bible study we are learning to think of 1 word to best describe our hearts in 2010. i picked THANKFUL. there is so much to be thankful for. i don't have to look around a whole lot to see that!! what word will you choose to best describe your heart????

baby clothes.

today i rest in the fact that my husband and i will be able to get pregnant! most of my baby clothes went to the local pregnancy help center. the rest, well, hopefully i can find someone that can take some clothing and make a lil blanket out of it!!! so i can touch and remember in the latter years the premie stuff that pete used to wear!! this is so hard~o well! no more starting over, diapers, 2 kids in daycare etc....i will go and get my nephew!!! thank god for tied tubes!

it's been a week already

i have came up with a new goal. i am a smoker. i told myself i am not smoking in the car anymore. today was my first day and i am so proud of myself. i am very pleased to know that mikey and tristan is going back to school tommorrow~the 6th. thank you god. we have added an addition to our family. a chihuahua! 5 months old. white and tan. her tail is longer than her body. when she wags her tail, her whole body just shakes. too cute. she has been a joy to have. her name is daisy. she really hasn't been one to be barking all the time at just little things. petie loves her to death. it's so cute. we have moms group next monday and i couldn't be any more excited and ready!!!

out with 2009 and in with 2010

well 09 was a good year. i will make 2010 the best year. i vow to myself and kids to do better~ i vow to give myself QUALITY TIME. i will get myself out of the house(weather permittinig) with the kids. i will do better and focus on them and not the house! house comes after bedtime! i have vowed to take my 18 days of vacation before december of next year. i will use up all my 50 hours of sick time. i will take off when my kids are off (boss lady has to approve). this year is going to be all around better!!! so here's to us 2010~~ be good~~~

cookies 101

after reading every step of the receipe, very disappointed my cookies, didn't turn out the first time. pete had to wait a while and retry my dough!! o well. today was the best day eroff ever! i went with my brother and his maternal grandma. we went to eat @ a mexican restaurant, mall toyrus and best of cavenders. i saw the cutest pair of cowboy boots ever! a little bit above my budget, i have decided not to buy until later! they did have a pair of Justins~working boots just like what daddy wears the sales lady muttered. are you kiddin'? those are some serious toddler work boots. but o so darn cute!!! petie, santa will be bringing those to you for your o i got it, birthday!!! the kids have some awesome presents to receive from Santa!! i just feel really on cloud 10 b/c my brother and i had some bonding time, all of it was time spent thinking about my children! it was just a great day. i love you brad! you rock.i am so proud of you!

5th grade Christmas party,i am not POLITICALLY CORRECT this holdiay

i passed a sign on an automotive shop yesterday and it went a lil something like this~~WE ARE NOT POLITICALLY INCORRECT~~WE SAY HAVE A MERRY CHRISTMAS~~i do not dare call it the "WINTER PARTY"i will be a lil rebelious right now. i am off to get supplies for mikey's christmas party on friday morning!! i am so excited. i have to make 3 dozen cookies and get some grapes and napkins and h20!! i am getting antsy to go shopping but i just have to be still and patient right now for the funds to get in the account!!! our family is gonna have a special christmas and that is it! we are gonna have presents and spending time w/ family, and the best gift of all, Jesus Christ was born. he was born and died to save us from our sins!! that in and of itself is the best present of all!!! i have spent some time going thru clothes and baby items. i have some maternity stuff as well. so i am going thru and half will go to the pregnancy help center and the other half i have decided to drive downtown houston and drop this stuff off to the star of hope mission!! i am so excited!

keeping christ.

in christmas is what my moms group was about on monday @ the church. our theme is joy in motherhood. the speaker was our wonderful pastor's wife, Mrs. Jo Beth Young. whenever all the decorations are gone. find.joy. whenever the christmas tree is all down, find.joy.with.your.kids. keep the joy is what i should say. keep the joy being a mother. i truly hope that i can do that. first it comes from the heart. then tonight i read blog about peace. this post was written for me to read and be remined of god's peace. i so truly feely rejuvinated by that post. she was explaining what peace meant. right now i just really feel like i need strength right now. for anyone who stops at this blog, please say a little prayer for me! thanks.

giving thanks.

i am thankful for god that truly continues to bless our family. i am thankful for the health of children. i am thankful for our vehicles. our cars to get us to work. i am thankful for our home. i am thankful for our family that helps us with the kids @ the drop of a hat. our health.

NMM

all this past week, i have been on scheduled vacation. i have not been in pj's more times than not. i have not let my all of our laundry pile up. i have not just barely gotten by with dinner ideas. we certainly did not eat 99 cent coney dogs b/c i didn't feel like cooking yesterday. i certainly did not use the excuse that the top of my foot feels broken so i am just gonna lay here on the couch and watch TV. what is your NMM? link it to mckmama's site. this is therauputic!!!

no more baseball

well that sums it up! no.more.baseball. we lost last night. 13-7. mikey got on base 2x and struck out once. dang fielding mistakes again! we had a great time though!! just relaxing some more with my vacation time. getting stuff done that i wanted/needed to. mikey has teacher luncheon tommorrow so i wil be there with soup and pasta salad in tow! what fun that will be! i am excited. friday is my meeting @ the school for the Christmas party. i will not Winter Party!!! hehe. which is ridiculous to begin with. o well at least they can have a party of some kind. this is mikey's last year @ elementary school and i WILL NOT MISS any part of it if i can help it!!! another thing, stellan he is progressing after his very risky procedure. stop by and drop a word of encouragement! mom is there alone with stellan. i am sure she could use every bit of her comments to lift her spirits!!!!o well. off to the store to get my stuff.

heaviest of hearts

over this weekend, i went to check on Gavin Owens. god bless his sweet family. i do not know this family personally, but their 2 year old just stole a huge piece of my heart. i keep finding myself going back several times over the past few days checking on him. my heart just is so sad for this family. i did a 5K walk in honor of Gavin over the summer with a family here in houston. getting back to our weekend however, we had a game on saturday and grandpa bobby and unca brad came. then we went to eat dinner! that was a huge treat. on sunday, loaded up the kids and went to church. afterwards, we played a game parents vs kids. just what the doc ordered for my spirits. there was so much laughter and just spending quality time with my boys! so so much fun!